STUPID EGO

Now is when you start wondering why you didn’t realize before how much you were hurting me with your way of being, why you were not able to perceive that I was not smiling, that practically I told you nothing.

You said you realized that you really had dedicated to ignore me, by locking up yourself in your world, and when I wanted to be close you just pushed me thousand times away, and when you wanted to go back, you realized you had lost me. You wanted to hold me, but you found out that the way I looked at you had changed and that all the love I felt for you ran away.

Now you say you are sorry, because you were not able to understand what you understand today, that I was special for you, and that your blindness didn’t allow you seeing that all the time you were letting me for later.

Stupid ego

DESDE CUANDO

Ya no duele porque al fin ya te encontré
Hoy te miro y siento mil cosas a la vez
Mira si busqué, mira si busqué
Tengo tanto que aprender
Todo lo que tengo es tu mirar

De mis recuerdos salen brisas a bordar
Las locuras que tú me quieras regalar
Y mira si busqué, mira si busqué
Tengo tanto para dar
Reconozco puertas que yo sé
Se abren solamente alguna vez
Así de poco

Desde cuando te estaré esperando
Desde cuando estoy buscando
Tu mirada en el firmamento, estás temblando
Te he buscado en un millón de auroras
Y ninguna me enamora como tú sabes
Y me he dado cuenta ahora
Puede parecer atrevimiento
Pero es puro sentimiento
Dime por favor tu nombre

Yo te llevo por las calles a correr
Vamos lejos más allá de lo que crees
Y si pregunto bien, si pregunto mal
Tengo tanto que ofrecer
Abro puertas que alguien me cerró
Y no busco más sentido a mi dolor

Mira no me vuelvas loco

Desde cuando te estaré esperando
Desde cuando estoy buscando
Tu mirada en el firmamento, va temblando
Te he buscando en un millón de auroras
Y ninguna me enamora como tú sabes
Y me he dado cuenta ahora
Puede parecer atrevimiento
Pero es puro sentimiento
Dime por favor tu nombre
No me vuelvas loco
Desde cuando te estaré esperando
Desde cuando estoy buscando
Tu mirada en el firmamento, va temblando
Te he buscando en un millón de auroras
Y ninguna me enamora
Y al final cuando te encuentro
Estabas sola

INVICTUS

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds and shall find me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll,
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

William Ernest Henley
(1875)

UP IN THE AIR

Ryan Bingham: I thought I was a part of your life.

Alex Goran: I thought we signed up for the same thing... I thought our relationship was perfectly clear. You are an escape. You're a break from our normal lives. You're a parenthesis.

Ryan Bingham: I'm a parenthesis?

HELLO

- If you love someone, give them the option to leave, but never give them a reason to.

- If he was stupid enough to walk away, be smart enough to let him go.

- If you can't love me at my worst, then you don't need me at my best!

Dancing is the vertical expression of a horizontal desire

MAD

I'm staring at him, I'm sitting wondering what he's thinking , nobody's talking, cause' talking just turns into screaming and now yes I'm yelling over him, he's yelling over me, all that that means is neither of us are listening, and what's even worse, that we don't even remember why we're fighting. It gets me upset when you're constantly accusing asking questions like you already know hey we're fighting this war when both of us are losing this ain't the way that love is supposed to go, what happened to working it out? We fall into this place where you ain't backing down, and I ain't backing down, so what the hell do we do now?.

Ne - Yo

LOVE, SEX AND MAGIC

THAT NIGHT

I saw you and you did not call my attention but that night the circumstances made us dance, having as a background the sound of the sea and music that incited us to the closeness. I was enjoying the moment and after a while I forgot about everything and I let myself to be guided by the subtlety of your seduction and the aggressiveness and sweetness of your kisses.

You were my best birthday gift.

I DON'T KNOW

Today I started wondering if my life is showing me the way I should follow. Do I need to have more evidences to understand I need to close a cycle and start a new one but in another place?

TRUE OR FALSE

In woman, love leads to sex. In men, sex leads to love.

Do you think is true?

LITTLE MANHATTAN

"Love is an ugly, terrible business practiced by fools. It'll trample your heart and leave you bleeding on the floor. And what does it really get you in the end? Nothing but a few incredible memories that you can't ever shake. The truth is, there's gonna be other girls out there. I mean, I hope. But I'm never gonna get another first love. That one is always gonna be her."

LLEGA CADA NOCHE

Si tu cuerpo se marcho, tu fantasma se quedo.

LIFE IS A DREAM

I dream that I am here
of these imprisonments charged,
and I dreamed that in another state
happier I saw myself.
What is life? A frenzy.
What is life? An illusion,
A shadow, a fiction,
And the greatest profit is small;
For all of life is a dream,
And dreams, are nothing but dreams.

Pedro Calderón de la Barca

HOLA

Today I was taking a look to my blog and I read some of the posts I wrote some time ago. My words made me remember the way I was feeling, because a lot of my writings reflected the melancholy, the sadness, the despair, the anger, the confusion that my soul, my heart and my head were having.

I guess nowadays I see things with a different mirror, because I feel much better.

I’m glad I create this small world in which I found wonderful people that little by little became part of my life. Thanks to all of you, for having some time to leave me a comment. All your comments were and are so important for me.

I’m not saying good bye, because this little nightmare (LettyLup) will continue here, but I won’t write so often, because sometimes there is no time to do it.

Warm regards,

LettyLup

RECLAMO

Te sentí cerca de mí
acaricié tu tersa mano
Tú estabas lejos de aquí
tu pensamiento era lejano.

Te estreche contra mi pecho
y así tímido en el lecho arcano.

Disfrutas las lisonjas de la vida
a la soledad reclamas tus derechos
y a mi amor que te brindo sin medida
le niegas sin razón sus hechos.

Deja ya tu quimera vana
de la realidad busca el ensueño
que la vida es hoy no mañana.

Ramón MacKinney

WONDERING

Someone said: "At the moment I´m wondering if you’re still being my present, if you will be my future or even if you already are part of my past".

Should I continue with you or should I tell you "adios"?

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CAVILACIONES

Sometimes is better to leave a text in it original language, because in that way it keeps all the original sense. Hope you enjoy the following text.

A veces quisiera abrir
ese corazón de roca…
remontarme en tu historia
y en tu pensamiento hurgar.

Quisiera pronto aclarar
nuestro tormentoso valle
y que nuestra noche estalle
en luces de mil colores, sin parar.

Que no exista la tristeza,
que todo sea insolación
el pasado del fantasma haga ficción
que muera el recuerdo por nobleza.

Y que Dios con su belleza,
nos una bajo su mar,
nos tome con su mano
para enseñarnos a amar.

Ramón MacKinney

I DON´T WANNA BE...

Feel the beat now.